FINALLY starting to get out of my Fashion Identity Crisis, I think (I hope)… WAHOO!!! it’s been 3+ yrs since my dd was born, and while I’ve never been anything close to “fashionista,” I at least used to have a decent sense of style, which I was beginning to think must have been broken down into microscopic particles and just absorbed and then discarded by my body as waste during pregnancy… :-\ so lately, in a Herculean effort to actually look at least somewhat fashionable again, I’ve actually been watching the Style Network — especially “How Do I Look?” and “Style Her Famous” — and I’ve realized I do still have very particular likes and dislikes, and that my core style is best described as “5S”: sleek, simple, sophisticated, and subtly sexy (think Angelina Jolie meets Audrey Hepburn/Holly Golightly)… I love Love LOVE the merino wool knit “little black dress” my dh gave me for Christmas, w/its not-too-deep v-neck, self-fabric sash, and long dolman sleeves; it hits me just above the knee and shows off my calves very nicely, esp when I wear my favourite black leather peep-toe platform pumps — I could wear that outfit to a design consult w/a client and feel very confident and comfortable… my favourite makeup look right now is very retro-40s, but it looks classic, not dated: minimal eye and cheek makeup w/a shocking red lipstick — WOW!! I do need to update my accessories, what few of them I actually have — I love my luggage-brown Chloe-inspired handbag (I’m not paying $1600+ for a bag of ANY kind!), which I just bought this past summer, and I have one plain black leather belt that’s still perfect for wearing w/low-slung jeans/trousers, but other than that, even my sunglasses need an update; the only thing that’s current is my jewellery (duh! )… I’m holding off on buying some new outfits from Spiegel that I’m WILD about (mostly slinky, drapey, versatile wear-everywhere knits), but I am getting my hair cut next week (YIPPEE!!) by a bona-fide Devachan-trained stylist out here in SLC — I’ve been doing wavy CG for my hair for ~3-4 wks now, and I think it’s great, but I’ve got the whole “no-style hairstyle” thing going on, so no matter how healthy my hair is, it still doesn’t look all that great right now, and I get frustrated w/it VERY easily at this point (it’s just getting to be too long to be manageable anymore), so it’s usually trapped in a ponytail these days… :-\ I really think a GOOD haircut will make a BIG difference in my confidence in general…

it just dawned on me that for the last few years I’ve been pretending that I don’t care about fashion or style, but that was largely a function of big changes in my life, like making the transition from single working girl to single working mom and having to learn to live on a very limited budget b/c my dd’s needs were/are more important than chic outfits; part of the problem, too, was the mental and emotional battle for dominance between “vixen” and “mom” (and I don’t think I’m the only woman who goes through this), and it’s taken me a few years to come to terms w/the fact that I can be — and am — both! plus it certainly doesn’t hurt that my dh makes a very comfortable living, so now I can actually afford to buy a few nice things again, if I can just learn to moderate my “I can’t spend any money!” reflex… ;-\

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