I was watching one of my shows on Style Network tonight when they ran an advert about something called PMDD — there was a website for more info, so I went and looked it up… OH. MY. GOSH. This is the nightmare I’ve been living in for the last 9-ish mos!! I suspect it’s partly due to the BCPs I’m on, so I think the first thing I need to do is talk to my doc about finding something else, whether it’s another pill or an entirely different form of contraception, but GEEZ LOUISE I was so BEYOND relieved to read something that sounds EXACTLY like the whole Jekyll and Hyde routine I go through for half the month every month, it’s just not even funny! just knowing that I’m NOT alone, it’s NOT all in my head, I’m NOT losing my mind, and there ARE things I can do about it, makes me feel like a huge weight’s been lifted off my shoulders… this even helps explain all the GUILT I feel so much of the time when there’s no reason in the world that I should feel guilty…!