I made an appt yesterday w/my OB-GYN for this next week — I’m a complete and utter hormonal raging wreck, and I’m driving myself and everyone around me insane!! I don’t know if my BCPs are aggravating my PMDD (I’m guessing they are) or what, but I CANNOT continue to live like this, and it’s unfair to my family as well… I have minimal interest in things I used to be quite passionate about (like my jewellery company), I have like ZERO patience when it comes to the kids (and frankly even to my dh), I can hardly even force myself to focus on the simplest, most mindless tasks, like seeing a load of laundry through to completion… half of my desk is still a disaster (I missed my personal challenge of having my desk cleaned off by Valentine’s Day; maybe now I should shoot for the Ides of March…?), I still haven’t gotten all of the Christmas stuff put away properly (it’s not still up all over the house, but it’s squirreled away in corners instead of packed up into boxes in the basement), and I’m supposed to be in charge of planning a family vacation to Disneyland (probably in late Spring), but the very thought of having to spend 4 solid days and nights w/my family is sheer torture…

I don’t know what the answer will be for me — maybe a different form of BC, maybe meds to counteract the hormones, who knows — but I’ve got to do SOMETHING b/c the whole “Jekyll and Hyde” thing is tearing my family apart, and I can’t even stand to be in the same room w/myself, let alone anyone else…

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