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my “baby” started kindergarten today — she kissed me goodbye and skipped off to talk to her friends while waiting for the bus; I felt lost and half-panicky: will she be okay? will the other kids at school be nice to her? will she make new friends? will she like her teacher? will her teacher like HER? will she get on the bus to come home okay? I called my sister whose twins started kindergarten last year and asked her if she’d experienced any of what I was going through; she confirmed that yes, absolutely, she was pretty freaked out the first few days, then she got over it as she adjusted to the new normal and everything was just fine — “mommy separation anxiety is pretty normal, almost everyone goes through it” *whew!* glad to hear it’s not just me…

it’s just so funny to me that here I’d been thinking I’d be thrilled to death to finally have 3 hrs/day all to myself, and I was actually a nervous wreck (for a couple of weeks leading up to the start of school, actually, and it got worse and worse as the first day of school got closer and closer), so much so that it actually whacked out my hormones again — trouble sleeping, extreme irritability and aggression, carb cravings, lack of energy, leg cramps, night sweats, you name it! I’m hoping that now I’ve seen how things will work w/Viv being in school, my anxiety will fade and my hormones will normalize again (and the rest of my body will follow suit)… *sigh* they do say that our greatest joy and our greatest sorrow comes from parenthood…

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